ON SATURDAY JAN 3 I WAS AT RUSSELL TOURNAMENT AND IT WAS A VERY BAD DAY FOR ME AS IS JAN 3 EVERY YEAR..I WAS ON MAT ONE TOWARDS THE END OF THE DAY AND MY DAUGHTER HAD JUST WRESTLED HER LAST MATCH AND LOST NOT BY MUCH BUT STILL..SHE WAS NOT WRESTLING TO THE BEST OF HER ABILITY THAT DAY AT ANY OF HER MATCHES AND I WAS UPSET THAT SHE DID NOT DO HER BEST..I WOULD LIKE TO APOLOGIZE TO ALL I UPSET BY MY ACTIONS AT THE TOURNAMENT..I AM EMBARASSED FOR THE WAY I PORTRAYED MY SUPPORT AND PARENTING AND THE WAY I DISRESPECTED NOT ONLY MY WONDERFUL DAUGHTER BUT MY CLUB AS WELL..I HOPE ALL CAN FORGIVE ME AND PLEASE KNOW THAT I AM NOT LIKE THAT NORMALLY HOWEVER THAT DAY WAS EXTRA SENSITIVE FOR ME I KNOW ITS NOT AN EXCUSE FOR MY ACTIONS BUT JAN 3 2003 I GAVE BIRTH TO A BEAUTIFUL BABY GIRL AND SHE PASSED AT 18 WEEKS..ALSO THE DAY BEFORE TOURNAMENT I GOT A CALL THAT VERIFIED I HAVE BREAST CANCER AND I JUST FINISHED TAKIN CARE OF MY MOTHER WHO JUST FOUGHT BREAST CANCER AND HAS ONLY BEEN CANCER FREE SINCE DEC 5TH 2008..SO ONCE AGAIN I APOLOGIZE TO RUSSELL FOR MAKING SUCH A SPECTICAL, TO ALL THE PARENTS,COACHES,WRESTLERS,AND FAMILIES WHO I SNAPPED AT OR WAS RUDE TO OR WAS AROUND AND HAD TO SEE ME ACT IN SUCH A MANNER,ALSO TO ELLSWORTH COUNTY WRESTLING CLUB I AM SORRY FOR ACTING IN SUCH A MANNER WHILE BEING A REPRESENITIVE OF YOUR CLUB AND MAKING THE CLUB LOOK BAD I WAS CHILDISH IMMATURE AND RUDE IT WAS ALL TOTALLY UNCALLED FOR AND I AM VERY UPSET WITH MYSELF AND EMBARRASED FOR SUCH CONDUCT ALSO I SAID IT SHORTLY AFTER LEAVING THE TOURNAMENT BUT FEEL I NEED TO SAY IT AGAIN lEEA,MOMMY IS SO SORRY FOR ACTING AS I DID YOU DID NOT DESERVE THE LASHING OUT THAT I DONE AND YOU WAS AT NO FAULT I WAS VERY PROUD OF YOU AND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I HOPE U FORGIVE ME AND I CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU SHINE ON THE MAT THIS WEEKEND I PROMISE I WILL NEVER ACT LIKE THAT AGAIN THE ONE WHO REALLY DIDNT DO THEIR BEST WAS ME I WAS NOT A MOM OR A MENTOR OR A ROLE MODEL AT THAT MOMENT I AM SO SORRY EVERYONE!!!

Cara,

I commend you on your post! I am a breast cancer survivor, seven years on Feb.5, and I continue to pray everyday that it won't return. No one can imagine what you are going through, and hopefully your post will give them some insight, and that many will offer their support for you. Although you don't know me, I am here if you need anything. Please feel free to PM me or email me at vwagh4@gmail.com any time.

My thoughts and prayers will be with you always!

THANK YOU GINNY YOUR KIND WORDS AND SUPPORT AND UNDERSTANDING HAVE MADE IT EASIER ON ME AND MADE ME REALIZE I NOT ALONE..I DONT EVEN KNOW IF I UNDERSTAND HOW I AM FEELING ITS SO MUCH TO TAKE IN AT ONE TIME..I AM GLAD THAT I HAVE EXTENDED WRESTLING FAMILY TO GIVE ME SUPPORT I JUST FELT SO BAD THAT I HAD TO APOLOGIZE OR AT LEAST TRY TO APOLOGIZE FOR MY ACTIONS IT WAS EMBARASSING FOR ME AND MY FAMILY AND I COULD ONLY IMAGINE HOW MY CHILDREN MUST OF FELT I HOPE PPL DONT GET THE WRONG IMPRESSION OF ME ARE U THE ONE WHO DOES KRUSADERS? IF SO I HAVE BEEN TALKING TO U ABOUT LEEA BENTLEY 6 UNDER 49 POUNDS FROM ELLSWORTH THAT IS MY DAUGHTER WELL THANKS AGAIN FOR UR SUPPORT AND PRAYERS

Cara,

I am the Kansas Krusaders Jenni, that you have been talking to recently. I appreciate your position on many levels. I am looking forward to working with you and your daughter and my prayers will be with you as you navigate the medical world of breast cancer.

Keep you chin up and battle hard...

See you in 2 weeks at the girls practice in Burlingame.

We had a nice turnout Sunday and are getting geared up for this season.

Ms. Jenni

Cara, we are from the Eastern part of Kansas, my son Connor, wrestled for Kansas City Wrestling Club. Actually, we are currently residing in Maryland until this summer, so know that your wrestling family stretches all the way out here! As I said before, if you need to talk, don't hesitate.

THANKS ALL OF YOU I WILL KEEP MY HEAD ABOVE WATER AS I TREAD LIGHTLY INTO THE UNKNOWN WORLD OF CANCER..I DO JUST LIKE I ADVISE MY KIDS GIVE IT YOUR BEST AND FIGHT HARD AND WHEN U ARE TIRED LOOK INTO YOUR HEART AND FIND THE STRENGTH TO GO ON THERE..HERE IS TO A GREAT TOURNAMENT TOMORROW IN CONCORDIA AND TO KEEPING MY EMOTIONS UNDER CONTROL