ON SATURDAY JAN 3 I WAS AT RUSSELL TOURNAMENT AND IT WAS A VERY BAD DAY FOR ME AS IS JAN 3 EVERY YEAR..I WAS ON MAT ONE TOWARDS THE END OF THE DAY AND MY DAUGHTER HAD JUST WRESTLED HER LAST MATCH AND LOST NOT BY MUCH BUT STILL..SHE WAS NOT WRESTLING TO THE BEST OF HER ABILITY THAT DAY AT ANY OF HER MATCHES AND I WAS UPSET THAT SHE DID NOT DO HER BEST..I WOULD LIKE TO APOLOGIZE TO ALL I UPSET BY MY ACTIONS AT THE TOURNAMENT..I AM EMBARASSED FOR THE WAY I PORTRAYED MY SUPPORT AND PARENTING AND THE WAY I DISRESPECTED NOT ONLY MY WONDERFUL DAUGHTER BUT MY CLUB AS WELL..I HOPE ALL CAN FORGIVE ME AND PLEASE KNOW THAT I AM NOT LIKE THAT NORMALLY HOWEVER THAT DAY WAS EXTRA SENSITIVE FOR ME I KNOW ITS NOT AN EXCUSE FOR MY ACTIONS BUT JAN 3 2003 I GAVE BIRTH TO A BEAUTIFUL BABY GIRL AND SHE PASSED AT 18 WEEKS..ALSO THE DAY BEFORE TOURNAMENT I GOT A CALL THAT VERIFIED I HAVE BREAST CANCER AND I JUST FINISHED TAKIN CARE OF MY MOTHER WHO JUST FOUGHT BREAST CANCER AND HAS ONLY BEEN CANCER FREE SINCE DEC 5TH 2008..SO ONCE AGAIN I APOLOGIZE TO RUSSELL FOR MAKING SUCH A SPECTICAL, TO ALL THE PARENTS,COACHES,WRESTLERS,AND FAMILIES WHO I SNAPPED AT OR WAS RUDE TO OR WAS AROUND AND HAD TO SEE ME ACT IN SUCH A MANNER,ALSO TO ELLSWORTH COUNTY WRESTLING CLUB I AM SORRY FOR ACTING IN SUCH A MANNER WHILE BEING A REPRESENITIVE OF YOUR CLUB AND MAKING THE CLUB LOOK BAD I WAS CHILDISH IMMATURE AND RUDE IT WAS ALL TOTALLY UNCALLED FOR AND I AM VERY UPSET WITH MYSELF AND EMBARRASED FOR SUCH CONDUCT ALSO I SAID IT SHORTLY AFTER LEAVING THE TOURNAMENT BUT FEEL I NEED TO SAY IT AGAIN lEEA,MOMMY IS SO SORRY FOR ACTING AS I DID YOU DID NOT DESERVE THE LASHING OUT THAT I DONE AND YOU WAS AT NO FAULT I WAS VERY PROUD OF YOU AND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I HOPE U FORGIVE ME AND I CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU SHINE ON THE MAT THIS WEEKEND I PROMISE I WILL NEVER ACT LIKE THAT AGAIN THE ONE WHO REALLY DIDNT DO THEIR BEST WAS ME I WAS NOT A MOM OR A MENTOR OR A ROLE MODEL AT THAT MOMENT I AM SO SORRY EVERYONE!!!